I haven't been talking to many people about this, because believe it or not, I really don't like to burden anyone with my problems. Those I have talked to about this may laugh a bit at that after my long winded rants, but that's because I reached a boiling point.

My life, in short, sucks. I have $12 in the bank, I'm unemployed, I'm not getting unemployment benefits because they claim I was fired for misconduct and not scapegoating which is what it was, I've been having almost crippling back problems lately (and I'm only 23) and I've started contemplating suicide again.

So, since I have no money I'm dependent on my parents to pay for my rent, bills and food. I hate having to take their money but at least they're offering it. I realize that could be a lot worse, but EVERY TIME I try to talk to them about my immediate needs I end up with a guilt trip from my dad about how I should go to graduate school THIS FALL. Regardless of the fact that it's July and WAY too late to be admitted, and the program doesn't have spring admittance so...yeah, kinda not going to happen. So I'm talking about finding a job, rent and I don't know...EATING and they talk about "well why don't you call [Dad's friend in my town who never answers her phone], she can help you get into school" and being made to feel LAZY because I'm trying to get a job and pay my own bills so they don't have to instead of trying to get admitted into an ELITE program a month before it starts when the cut off was LAST YEAR. By the way when I say "they" I mean my mom speaking for my Dad, because he can't get it through his head that I don't want to talk about it right now and if she doesn't talk to me about it he'll make her life hell.

After having this end a night, where I had been in a good mood, in tears and wanting to punch through a wall to both destroy something and hurt, I decided to explain what was going on to them AGAIN.

This is the email I sent my mom

( It's not too mean is it? )

So yeah, if you haven't heard from me in awhile...this is what I've been up to.

You will get a Con report when I'm awake and my brain is functioning, Right now all you're getting is pictures.

The normal collection of weird pictures and quotes is here: Only in Cosplay: CONvergence09

Pictures of our BEST IN SHOW winning costumes are under the lj-cut.

( We are seriously still in shock )

Ugh...

For the past two weeks I have done nothing but work on my Arshtat costume for the CONvergence masquerade. I think it's done...mostly. Done enough for me to travel with it and finish once I get home. There are no pictures yet so don't ask. I just really hope it will all be worth it in the end >.>

Anyway...so I was just reminded that it's my birthday. I had totally forgotten. Yay...23...woo >.>

Omg I hate life so much right now. Stupid costume, stupid economy, fucking Hancock.

So it's probably not news now that the sims have taken over my life. In the two weeks that I've had it I've had 3 Suikoden households so far. I had the Falenan Royal Family and the Bandit trio...and for the past week I have been working on a suiko_rpg house and creating Budehuc!

Unfortunately I can only have 8 sims at a time so the cast of this house is limited, I'll be making more suiko_rpg houses soon, so if you want to see a sim of your character let me know. This first house contains: Euram (DUH), Jewel, Geddoe, Sigurd, Hervey, Alenia, Cecile and Juan.

ANYWAY I promised the chat pictures so...

( The creation of Budehuc )

( Now that we've seen the place, lets meet the cast. )

( The Romance Files )

If you look at no other pictures, look at this one:
( Geddoe making pancakes in his underwear )

Ok, so I picked up Sims 3 about a week ago and I'll admit that I'm hooked. There are still some problems with it; like my fat characters not looking fat but instead distorted with their heads nowhere near their bodies during game play. And the complete LACK of male hair-styles to choose from...but it's microsoft so that means it came out flawed and they'll patch it as they go so, here's hoping.

Anyway, in this one week I've gone through 4 houses; one of the game's and three fandom so naturally I have pictures.

( House One: Kingdom Hearts - Axel/Roxas and Sora/Kairi )

( House Two: Falenan Royal Family - Arshtat, Ferid, Sialeeds, Frey, Lym, Lyon, Miakis )

( House three - Faylen, Faylon and Roy )

see more Funny Graphs

You couldn't do this last weekend so I could go to ACEN?

So...I just got fired.

They didn't tell me why. He just said "my integrity was called into question such that I wouldn't be able to refute it"...ummm? What? Does that mean I stole something? Cause I didn't. Does that mean I didn't say "Hi how are you?" to a customer who was on her cellphone...probably.

I got home from inventory day today and two hours later the district manager calls me telling me that "my services are no longer required" and apparently it was the Vice President's (who was also there for some bizarre reason) decision. I called the store manager she doesn't know what happened either, or why it happened. They just blind sided her with it. At least she said I could still use her for a reference. So whatever this integrity issue was the boss who saw me more than once in her life didn't see it.

I wasn't the only one fired either. They also canned the assistant manager. There were only four people on the management team so now it's down to the store manager (who lives 2 hours away and has been wanting a transfer) and the other supervisor (who has a better higher paying job and can only work about 8 hours in an entire week). So...yeah, they're kinda screwed. Someone's going to need to get a fast promotion because they can't run the store on just those two. I still feel really bad about that, even though for all intents and purposes I shouldn't give a rats ass. I wouldn't at all if the Store manager had fired me, but this was thrown on her so... Fuck, I don't care.

Hell, I had a customer Shake my hand today and vow to keep shopping at the store just because I was there to talk to. Fuck them. They haven't even been paying me enough to live, but how dare they fire me for some bullshit reason they can't even put into words. FUCK THEM. This morning I was running around the store to set up the signs for the sale to cover for the supervisor who forgot to do it! Yesterday I spent the entire day in the office doing paperwork so that the manager wouldn't get in trouble for it not being done! What the hell?!

I have to talk to the store manager more tomorrow. If nothing else i'm going to get the District Managers number to demand more answers if she can't get them out of him. Seriously.


....

Ok I was mid-rant when the phone rang and it was the other person who got fired. I feel a bit better now. Not great, but we had a nice bitch-fest. I'm going to be sad tonight and tomorrow just be happy I never have to step foot in that store again unless I'm there to shop.

This may be vindictive; but I hope other people walk because of this.

I don't hate being a women...but i really hate being fertile sometimes >.>

Anyone want a healthy uterus? Very regular! Never been used!

Ok I have posted my costumecon pictures.

With the exception of Geddoe and my new dress we really didn't take too many of ourselves this time around. Damn, I should have taken more of Euram...oh

http://www.flickr.com/photos/8316572@N06/sets/72157617698776583/

Enjoy~

Well we're back from CostumeCon. It was a terrible 17 hour drive to get there but OMG was it worth it! Once again the con was a blast. Everyone is always so nice, and you learn so much just from walking around in the halls. I can't wait to try hot glue gun jewelry, let me just say.

Also; Canadians! You are awesome!

That is all.

Except it's not...cause there's also this:

I WON AN AWARD.

I got a workmanship ribbon for Best Fabric Decoration for my Euram Barows costume. That would be this one!

Also the dress in the icon was one of the costumes I made for it...capsulecorp_tm took a picture of the "details on the front" so it had to be made into an icon.

I'm sure there's a lot more to report on...but my brain isn't working. So ask questions maybe that'll spark something.

If I have any words of wisdom to share it is this:

When traipsing through the high grass around Gondor...wear proper foot gear.

Ow.

Anything I could post right now would just be depressing so...RP MEME!

Yoinked from capsulecorp_tm

Name one of the characters I RP as and I'll tell you:

01. Full name

02. Best friend

03. Sexuality

04. Favorite color

05. Relationship status

06. Ideal mate

07. Turn-ons

08. Last sexual experience

09. Favorite food

10. Crushes

11. Favorite music

12. Biggest fear

13. Biggest fantasy

14. Quirks in bed

15. Bad habits

16. Biggest regret

17. Best kept secrets

18. Last thought

19. Worst sexual/romantic experience

20. Biggest insecurity


I don't have very many active ones right now, but I'll answer questions about any of them that I have played in the past too.
( List of muses )

Ok! So mystyangel and I were talking and realized that we're both totally boned when it comes to finances.

So after a great conversation about that and books we've been forced to read against our will we came up with the best get rich quick scheme ever!

( VAMPIRES, UNICORNS AND EMO? HOW CAN THIS GO WRONG?! )

.... ::deep breath::

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Ok...so I just chewed out by my boss for not having the right attitude about this job. I will accept that. I made a joke, that others did not think was funny, and they complained I will take responsibility for that. However, tattling on me for things I did not say = not cool. But whatever.

THE REAL PROBLEM
I decided last night that I was going to call the temp agency and tell them this job wasn't working out. I'm on the phone all day and sometimes I have trouble hearing, not exactly the best match. So I was going to ask if there were anything else available. NOW IT'S JUST GOING TO LOOK LIKE I'M ONLY DOING THAT BECAUSE I GOT IN TROUBLE!

And if they think that, it'll go on my record and then I'll just have SO much luck getting a better (or even another) job in this company which I kinda wanted to.

So yay! MY LIFE SUCKS!

I don't even have a day to get over this...I don't have a day off until thanksgiving...yay!

YAAAAAAAAAY!

I'M OUT $500!!!!!!!!

CAUSE WHITE SEWING MACHINES SUCK ASS!!!

and cause apparently Windows XP or higher means, "we don't need to say it won't work with vista if we plan to discontinue support for the product anyway"

...

YAY

PS. If you're reading this Leslie, don't worry about it, my sister has XP and seems interested :)

In case you hadn't heard yet, I am currently working in a call center (yes great use of my degree and cum laude >.>) As such I introduce myself to people all day so. I say "Hi, thanks for calling (company) this is Rosanna, how can I help you?" They then reply "Thank you" and then one of these other names. So; welcome to the first installment of:

NAMES I AM CALLED AT WORK!

Yevanna
Josanna (this is their favorite)
Barbara
Ramona
Jolanna
Rozata
Rosario
Rosala

I'm only an hour into work at this point so I'll add more as they come.

Edit: Ok I have more
Cassandra
Jolina
Jolanda
Yovana

And this is a good day :)

Dear Uterus,

If I give you chocolate will you please let me live?

Deepest Regards,
Your Hostage

Edit: Uterus says NO ;_;

YAY!!

Half of the country is going to be pissed and this time I'm not part of it!

...Screw you Heroes.

Seriously.

Screw you.